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Sunday, September 28, 2008
11:32PM
oh uncontrolable heart ache. how i miss the feeling of getting your heart ripped out and stepped on. and maybe its just because i am over reacting too. i dont know that to think about the matter. all i do know is that i am very depressed, and there is definitely more of a reason than just stupid stupid boys. lets just hope being home will lighten my mood.
on a brighter note, my dog went to the vet for the first time! my dad told me that he is just fine, and that the grey cat is over weight. news i already new, and good news on top. yay for that!
I miss my dog and my cats! I really really miss them. I look around here, and i see all these animals, strays, and even pets, and they are torchured here. Things they do here, would NOT be acceptable back home. I saw a woman dump boiling water on a bunch of baby kittens because they were in her lawn, and dogs are neglected completely. Tied up in the lawns, no water, no food (maybe once a day) and its so fucking hot here. the strays are treated much worse. there was this dog in the middle of the road, scared out of its mind because he was on the highway and couldnt move, and people were throwing trash out of their cars, as they passed by him with the car. i ended up going into the road and getting the dog out of the road. He was only about 6 months, still really small, and a golden retreiver. poor dog, i got him some water, and some food, my moms friend cookie took him in too. called him humous. he is soo cute. at least i helped on animal find a good home.
i swear i couldnt live here because of all the animals, i would take them all in, feed them, and help them. I already want to take them all on the plane home with me:(
Saturday, September 27, 2008
hello all of those in internet land!
How are you all this fine evening?
I am well, thank you for asking. i am a lot better since my last post of which the topic was stress. I had a very long day, i went to this litle village with my mom and my aunts and managed to finally get the presents i needed to get for everyone back home. sorry to those who i didnt bring back a gift to, i didn't have much money and only a small amount of people got gifts that i thought would be very very special and perfect for them.
I will be arriving home on the 2nd of october, which is only a couple days away, and i couldn't be happier. I got to see my family, and now i get to come back home to my dad, my sister, and my dear friends (who are basically family to me). i will also be returning to my dog, and 2 cats who are my children =)
When i will be returning, it will be very close to my birthday, and i have already started to plan my two gatherings. One will be taking place at medieval times, with a small amount of close friends and potentially family, and another will be taking place at my house, where thousands upon thousands of people will be venturing to, just to have some fun on a very important day. Details will be provided closer to, and at my discretion because, im not gonn apost it on here, you will get the invite. Either way i am excited because it means i get to see everyone when i return, and have some birthday fun.
One thing i did learn from my visit is my little cousins are quite spoilled. The little girl more than the little boy. The little girl lost her father however, so i am not hard on her, but it is still a problem, because she has to get her way, and life will be hard on her if she doesn't learn it doesn't always work that way. And the little boy has major anger issues, and i mean MAJOR. He is only twelve and managed to run away from home for the night, because he didn't want to sit at the table for dinner.
I learned a lot about them, and how hard life is here in israel, and how children react to bad things in their lives. It makes me really want to go into pyschology, and makes me really not want to have any kids at this time (not that i was plannign to in the first place.)
Well then, i will be posting closer to my flight, as well as when i return.
Peace
- Danielle
Current mood:  cheerful Current music: One Man Army by Our Lady Peace
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
I have made a decision. Stress sucks. Stress on all levels, minor and major, it sucks balls. And there is sooo much to be stressed about right now. I don't need to worry about half of the things that i am right now.
Family drama, thats a major level of stress, it is not fun to deal with. Esspecially when you are not in your own country.
Boy stress, is in between major an minor stress, is fucking BULLSHIT thats all ic an say about that, and thats all i need to say about it.
and all the other stress, real life stress over school and bills, thats annoying and so much worse than any other stress. its like MAJOR MAJOR stress.
either way, people stress is the most annoying, because it is something that can and cannot be changed. It has to be approached in a very very delicate way. If you go to strong with opinions, telling people to stop being idiots, then you are going to get a whole wack of shit in the face. and if you go in to softly nothing will ever be different. Currently all my stress is relatively people stress which just plain sucks.
Lets just hope for my sanity and the safety of others that when I return to the cold of toronto, that i will be a lot calmer than i am now.
Current mood:  annoyed Current music: Don't Look Back in Anger by Oasis
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Alright my friends on this online blog...... i don't even know if anyone still uses this. either way
HELLO it has been a long time
let me fill you in on what has happened the past year or so.
1. my boyfriend and i, who have dated for about a year, have decided to call it quits.
2. I finished my years at the hell hole i called highschool
3. I took a year off before i start my post secondary education at Humber College. (Journalism program WOOT)
4. I have currently left the country, and am chilling with my family in israel.
5. I believe i have met someone new, and am very happy with the direction it is going.
and finally
6. I have been writting alot of music, and enjoying every second of this break before school.\
Now that you are up to speed, let me tell you a little about my visit to my family's place. It is very warm, very humid, and very smelly here. A lot of pointless drama between family members here as well, and to be completely honest, i am dieing to come home. I am just praying the 2nd of october comes as fast as possible. There is just too much stupid stuff that is happening currently, that my fun level has dropped to a big fat ZERO. however, it is great seeing my family which i have not seen in a couple years.... probably more.
on the plus side, the drinking age in israel is 18... so alcohol has been in my system for the past couple days now.... dont tell me i need AA meetings, because i definitely do not.
Ill try and update more often, and now that im vacationing, i probably will because there isnt a thing to do.... and at school too, because i like to procrastinate with this blog. anyway, i wish you guys all the best, and hopefully i will be back soon.
PEACE LOVE AND BONERS!
-D
Current mood: cranky Current music: Billie Jean by Michael Jackson
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
12:28AM
*during a phone call. discussing my back pain*
Joey: Why am i massaging my bed sheets?!
Saturday, September 29, 2007
5:42PM
haha another amazing quote from today
*while discussing ruling a country.... while playing war (the card game)*
Dana: I rule because i carry a ruler in my back pocket!
5:28PM
a few interestingly funny quote from the day
1.
*Talking about Quebec Traffic Signs*
Me: So whats the word for left in french?
Dana: Somethign with a g.. ummm, Gateau?
Me: Gateau is cake.... No Cake Turn?
2.
*while playing war (the card game)*
Dana: You took all my cards! You took all my FRIENDS!
3.
*Discussing Bon Jovi*
Me: I'll Take Richie Sambora
Dana: Im happy with Jon
Me: I want both, at the same time
Dana: yes.. i agree with that one
*silence*
Me:....Stop thinking about it.
Dana: Ok....
4.
Dana: I think i spelt 'chilly' wrong. I spelt it c-h-i-l-l-i
Me: Yeah thats the food. haha its spelt c-h-i-l-l-y
Dana: Well if left can be cake then chilly can be chilli
5.
Tony: Gateau Gauche!
*gauche=left*
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
1:18PM
I'm falling and I can't stop. Everything is so pointless now, I don't get why. I'm sitting in the library of my school, and i can't seem to care about anything. This school is really dull and just plain upsetting. I don't get why I feel so numb to every feeling. I guess getting freed comes at a price of entrapment. You are free i guess, if you want to be, you are, but you are still trapped by society and laws and school and parents and stupid reasons.
This building is so hollow, cold and empty..... I don't know, maybe I am going crazy. Stupid concussions.
I just want to go to a place where I have complete freedom. Some place calm, and where everything is alright, no bad vibes.
Current mood:  numb Current music: The End by The Doors
Thursday, August 23, 2007
12:37PM
So i am back, i have been for a while now. I have been back since the 7th.
oklahoma was awesome, I ate at a lot of new restaurants, and even went down to Texas. I actually miss it down there a lot. I want to go back, or go and do grade 12 down there or something. its really nice, and my type of area.
School starts soon, and that frecking spain trip is coming up so i have to pay for that probably. Damn im gonna be on my last year.... wonder what thats gonna be like.:S
What else is new... hmmm?
me and eric broke up, but we are still good friends, so i guess ill still have him to chill with.... i dont know much has changed this summer, and i am not too sure if it is for the best.
Thursday, July 26, 2007
1:33PM
alright
so long time no post. I guess i should get started.
well joey visited, and me and him hung out a lot when he did, to the point of me driving down to the states on road trip with him cause his mom wanted to see me. So currently i am not at home, i am in Oklahoma.. Woopiddo!... hmmm. Ive been having fun after all im hanging with my best friend, and getting away from the assholes in toronto who i needed a break from. Not my friends of cours,e they are my friends i love them dearly, but the assholes. hmm So my mom said yes to the rick wakeman concert finally she gave me a straight answer on whether she wanted to go or not.
hmm its annoying really that she takes so long to decide and she calls everything five seconds with no answer. UGH oh well at least she will be gone when i com eback
hmm. what else. nothing really i can think off, except trying all these new restaurants and enjoying new foods:)
thats its for now.
peace and love to all of you
Tuesday, July 3, 2007
3:12PM
So joey arrived from the states. and his first night here was very interesting.
Me him and eric drove around, eric and him played video games. we all just chilled out and had a fun time staying up till 9:20 am.
Tranformers today, with Nicky and Joey. yay!. if only we can get a hold of that bastard (joey not nicky)
Sunday, July 1, 2007
11:18PM
so i had a very eventful and girly Canada day. I spent the whole time in my room with my sister, watching titanic, TWICE because my sister didn't want to watch it alone. And she just had to watch it twice.
I cried to the point of hyperventilation, got punched in the ribs where they are cracked, and got blamed for jack being dead.
I officially hate Canada day and everything to do with it. However i did realize that Titanic is very disturbing for young children. For heaven's sake a dead woman was floating on her back (FROZEN DEAD MIGHT I ADD) with her DEAD NEW BORN BABY laying in her arms. It was one of the saddest images i have ever seen. And that fact that it is true that 1500 people died that night. and 700 escaped. Because SOME ASSHOLE DIDN'T PUT ENOUGH LIFE BOATS and because some ASSHOLE WANTED TO MAKE HEADLINES THAT TITANIC GOT TO PORT A WEEK AHEAD OF SCHEDULE just sickens me to the point of puking from so much rage. I cried tears of anger, and hatred, and not to mention sadness. Mostly because Jack died, but also because of all the stuff i said before.
....I hate Canada day....
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Long time no post. well. so this is my first post in quite some time. so let me update you all
Schools out, left grade 11 with an 81 average (second semester).
drawing 90, guitar 87, photography 85, and english because i didnt hand anything in, and my teacher was an absolute bitch i got a 62.
Not bad.
it was a great year and its going to be a fantastic summer, and for you dana i will try and get some more fics and original works done this summer. just havent had the time, focusing on my art stuff and all.
so other than that, this summer is going to be filled with Friends visiting from the states, visiting people possibly, mom is coming back, roger waters show is nearing closer and more time to spend with the people i love most of all. OH and of course i get to sleep in.
im getting super excited to get into college in a year from September. I want to start cooking already, and get all my stuff organized, so im going to try and get a job at a restaurant this summer as a chef assistant, waitress or bus boy thing. I dont care as long as im around what i need to learn.
There has been some drama that has now been solved. Things between friends got better, and things between two friends of mine got worse. but hey thats life.
um me and eric had some drama too, but other than that, nothing big with him unless you count going to a roger waters show in two weeks. Oh and rick wakeman is coming too so im going to see that with my mom, some bonding and stuff, plus its me and my mom at a concert its gonna rock cause yeah it just will.
Thats about it for now. and i shall try and post more seeing as yeah.
Current mood: accomplished Current music: Aerosmith- crazy
Friday, June 8, 2007
11:14PM
So i went to see 300 again today. Twas an interesting evening after school.
I went with my mom and eric to dinner, after the haircut... which BTW the woman fucked up so my mom called her hair dresser and they fixed it. didnt care much but she threw a fit
well so we went to dinner, and then to the movie
i had an awesome time which i always do with mr. eric
at one point during dinner eric went to the bathroom and my mom started talking about the waitress and how she was checking him out, and how she wanted to slap her or something. and i agreed but didnt really care much. after the movie though, it was funny cause i told eric and he laughed cause my mom angry is very entertaining.
Sunday, May 27, 2007
9:42PM
FINALLY i finished this bloody stupid god damn picture of eric. His hair took so fucking long to do. well check it out
Current mood: accomplished Current music: Lighting Crashes by Live
1:58PM
so i walked down stairs and my dad stopped me and said
Father: IS that you in the shower?
Me: what what the fuck I'm standing in front of you not in the shower
Father: Oh right you have to be in the bathroom for a shower, so who is showering?
Me: what are you the shower police, i think its Leeanne.
Father: yes yes i am, and you got a ticket.
He actually handed me a ticket, a fine for not showering when he was talking to me I owe him 2 bucks.
Yes, yes this actually happened I am not kidding, and i had paid my fine for the hilarity, not for the reason.
Current mood: calm Current music: Pillar of Davidson - Live
Thursday, May 24, 2007
7:25PM
i think it offically became a problem.
Current music: No Surprise byTheory of a Deadman
1:05AM
i think i have offically come to the conclusion that i hate my mother.... i am loosing my mind for all those that know what i am talking about cool. Way too much stress so please... just anything that will stress me out isnt a smart thing to throw at me. Cool. thanks. lolly pops
Current music: Gas Hed Goes West by Live
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
yeah so i finially finished the drawing i was working on all fucking weekend.
:)
Current music: Heavy Fuel by The Dire Straits
Saturday, May 19, 2007
7:35PM
I hate my parents. I hate them both so much. No matter how good an idea, it always gets shot down.
First off i tell my dad about it, he says SOunds like a good idea, ill talk to your mom. THen i talk to my mom, she says he never said anything, and before i could even get more than a sentence out she says no, Not even hearing the idea.
so... i go to my dad, after telling her puppy said it sounded like a good idea. THEN HE FUCKING SAYS HE NEVER SAID THAT> WHAT A FUCKING DOUBLE TALKER I FUCKING HATE HIM I HATE MY MOM AND I WANT OUT NOW... This isnt fair at all. Cant i have a break from this, Im not even gonna be in school when it was gonna take place. FUCK i hate themboth, my mom for not giving anything a chance, because she knows it will make me happy. Honestly what does she care she lives in BC she is gonna be in BC when im going so WHAT THE FUCK seriously WHAT THE FUCK Its not like im gonna be sitting around moping because my mother is in BC. fuck you i know you want that to happen but i dont give a flying fuck about you. And my dad because he says one thing, and then says he never said that. FUCK HIM TOO he is a cocksucker. and my mom is worse cause she is a fucking bitch as well as a cocksucker.
all of them bastards.
Current mood:  PISSED THE FUCK OFF Current music: the sound of my breaking things
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